So with everything stress wise going on I have neglected to update, when I reality I should not avoid this blog because it is perfect stress relief.

First, MIL is still here but M so nicely told her to go away to her daughters for a week. This has been the best week. I like her but I just need her not here. I need an arrival date and a departure date which I don’t get with her staying with us. Luckily if she arrives back at our house on Wednesday which I hope then I only have to spend a couple days with her before our vacation. So rock on. Still don’t know when she will finally leave.

My first doctor appointment was on the 12th. I was disappointed going in thinking there would not be an u/s and M would not get to see the baby because he wont be able to get the time off now. Well, the wonderful NP that we met with had them squeeze us in. She was amazing. Now I am so upset about not staying with this office. I don’t meet the doctor until the 29th but I am hoping to have some idea as to when I will switch to the doctor in the new town soon. The baby measured 11w 3d at the visit when I thought I was 10w 5d so that made me happy too. They got he/she to dance a bit and sit up an stretch (or at least what looks like that) heart beat was 162bpm. They gave us a bunch of pictures but I have yet to figure out how to scan them onto my computer. I would show baby bump photos but, there are none. I show no difference yet from 4 weeks to 10 weeks or now. I haven’t gained any weight yet either. I get car sick now and get light headed which I don’t enjoy. Still pretty tired all the time. In a couple more weeks I hope the tired feeling will go a bit away.

Bought my first set of maternity bras, a tummy sleeve and preggy drops. It was exciting. I just need a bump now!

Spent the morning vacuuming and cleaning carpets, scrubbing bathtubs and laundry.

In other news M and I are going to try marriage counseling. We need it especially with all the stresses going on in our lives. Things got bad for a bit. It is a bit better but we still need help.

So that is why I have been missing. will try to keep updating though.

So I have never tried go-gurts before yesterday.  we were at the store getting his boston cream pie when I saw the go-gurts and was looking at the flavors when my eye got caught by scooby doo and gang and I saw there was a fruit punch flavor.  Oh it was on.  I grabbed that box so quick.  Just had my first one this morning.  Nummers:)

House hunting sucked, M and I want different houses.  His mom is out of town with him.  Wish I could have gone to the coast too but at least I am left alone here.  Last week was so awkward with her and me here alone when her daughter is just 20 miles away and she only stayed one night with her because I guess she feels more comfortable at our place.  Go figure, it made me less comfortable.  He claims he will talk with her this week.  I doubt he will.  I had so many fights with that man about it, even threatened to go to my parents until she left.  She isn’t a bad person but I feel it is unfair we are not given a begin/end date to her visit, 1 month or maybe 2.  He told me she understood we needed our time to ourselves and she would spend most the time with her daughter instead I get the vibe that she is spending most of her time with us and giving us alone time by spending a few nights with her daughter here and there.  Uh, no not what we meant.  I am also stressing then about what she plans on doing in a year when she leaves her other son.  I don’t want to live with her yet.  I am sorry but I just don’t.  It isn’t fair.  She has a daughter she can live with who has invited her to live there but she feels she would be imposing.  Apparently she doesn’t feel that way about just moving in with the young, newly married couple who still have a lot of issues.  My right shoulder has broken out horribly from the pregnancy and the extreme stress her being here has caused.

That would all be why I haven’t posted lately.

We are moving, looking for a house, I am emotional and M’s mom is visiting which brings out my frustration in not knowing what is going on, how long is she staying? I don’t know, How long is she staying with us? I don’t know. Is she planning on moving in with us even though M supposedly told her that we don’t want that yet? I don’t know. I just want to avoid my home right now so I don’t have to interact with either of them.

I am sick.  I feel so pitiful.  I need chicken soup, and vitamin C.  This means running to the store.  It is 4:45am.  Can’t sleep as I have been coughing up the green stuff and dealing with my nose all night.  This sucks.  No temp yet though.  I don’t know if work on Tuesday is an option.  God I feel aweful.  I want to feel better.

So I have been hiding from the blog.  Not for any particular purpose except we have been busy and I have been tired.  Of course we have been spending most of our extra time house hunting.  Which sucks by the way.  We finally settled on one house and offering a certain price but just before we put that offer in M got a call.  One where the words “Don’t buy a house in that city, we are moving you” were utter.  What?! Did I just say they are moving us?!  Why yes I did!   The details are not ironed out yet but we should know more in a week and then we will begin house hunting in that city.  I am excited because it is closer to my family.  However, this means finding a new OB and setting up that appointment or commuting for my first prenatal appointment or sticking with June 12th here.  Not sure what to do.  What sucks is I am moving to an even bigger town but guess what, no one there takes our insurance because another insurance is the big bully in town.  What a total crock of shit.  

In other news I came down with a viral throat infection on Thursday.  So much fun especially since I can not drug myself to feel better.  Oh and least I not forget morning sickness apparently kicked in when I got the infection.  Oh yes, yes it did.  I am not throwing up but I am so very nausea that it is making things miserable.  At least the ginger is helping.

So that is where I am in life so far.  Off to sleep some more.

What news, what news. . . hmm. Oh I know! How about the news that we found out we are staying where we are at and have decided to buy a house! Yay! In fact we got pre-approved for a loan Thursday and then saw a house Friday. . . and then put an offer in on said house! I know! We are moving fast. First house we saw and we put in an offer. Strange yes but when you consider we have been house hunting on the internet for months and know what is out there we are pretty happy with the home. We are asking $35,000 below what they want and that is after they dropped the price $30,000 about 1 month ago I think. So I don’t know how well they will like our offer. I just hope it works out. We are both talking about what we will do to the house so much that is going to be a big let down if the negotiations go bad. A pregnancy and a house all in one month, a lot to process but it would be awesome if it happens.

Went and saw Wolverine today, which was a pretty good movie. I expected more though after all the reviews I heard about it. Oh and Deadpool I heard they were making a movie out of so I wonder how that is going to work.

Hungry, going to go make cheesy hamburger helper. Oh yeah.

This past weekend M and I were gone to visit my family. It was needed and long over due. I haven’t gone down to see all my family since December. My Mom and Dad have come up and visited me but my brother and his daughter are unable. So my mom and I did baby things. A bit early for it, yes. I couldn’t help myself she was so excited and wanted to go to Target and look at stuff that I got caught up in it. I even have a registry already when I am only 5 weeks along! I feel like I will be jinxing myself and something will happen. She had fun though and started buying stuff for the baby. It really sucks because I won’t be able to go down for Christmas. It will be my first Christmas without my family ever, and I will be pregnant with my first child. I have a feeling there will be lots of crying. I am hoping that we will get to buy a house and then at least I can invite everyone up to celebrate with us.

I woke up with M this morning at around 6am even though I didn’t need to. I got the laundry going and then laid on the couch and fell back to sleep. I had the hardest time getting myself back up. I have this list of stuff I need to get done today and I feel lazy but I like having my relaxing days and even though when we were with my family all I did was relax, we had to travel there and back so it didn’t feel like my true relaxing days.

Oh and yeah, May sucks. What happen to May’s flowers? I am done with April’s showers I tell ya.

So, since getting the wonderful faint pink line I have felt like I am  apart of a whole new group.  Moms.  I feel like I have been let into some secret club that I never knew how bad I wanted to be apart of.  I am not even 5 weeks yet but I am buying books and posting in forums.  I wonder if this has anything to do with not be part of the in crowd growing up. . .now I can perfect my secret hand shake and secret language.  Yes, I will be posting photos to follow the progress of the pregnancy but I don’t feel it shall become all about the pregnancy here.  I mean according to the other secret members we have to keep some secrets or no one else will secretly wish to join.  I am a dork, I know.

In other news my hubby and I take off for down south tomorrow to visit my folks and my friend Lynn.  I got her a cool gift, but maybe that is just because I liked it.  Not much else going on.  I still lead a boring life.

Last night I was happily BBQ some steaks while M was out hitting some golf balls. Mylie had gone out for a bit before hand but already returned to the comfort of the house. I had was watching something on t.v. while everything was cooking. Soon though the timer went off which is of course requiring that I get up and flip the stead least I should want to burn them. As I walked down the deck stairs to the grill (small deck, lots of patio furniture means grill is out on the dirt in the yard) when from my left comes this huge pile of fur running to the right at the of our yard but only to begin with only like 5-6ft from me. At first I thought cat. Then my brain started to process things, hmm big cat, with no tail, point ears. . . oh! bobcat! The fur kind of looked spotted. It was injured though, favor it’s right hindquarter. It keeps walking slowly, glancing from side to side. Then when it reaches the fence where it likes to enter and exit appearantly it turns and looks at me. I was wrong, not a cat of any sort but this:

Backyard Visitor

With no tail, and a gimpy right hindquarter. He/She was so cute! No I had never seen a raccoon before and yes I know they can be annoying with the trash and such, but I still felt bad for him/her.

Needless to say, Mylie does not get to go in the backyard alone anymore. Also, we need to fix a hole in the fence.

So I have been a flake, which I already stated in a previous post but this time my reasoning was this. I was anxious to type something out but didn’t want to jinx things and well:

Sweet!

So.. . Yay! M is in quiet shock. He went from trying with me to, “oh crap it happened” Heh. I am excited. I am 4/5 weeks and due January 3/4 2010.