Blast from the past

I have been very unproductive today. I stumbled uponWayback Machine. Oh yes, at least 1 1/2 hours of my afternoon has been spent looking at old websites of mine, well at least the ones I could remember the address to. Oh my freaking god! I can’t believe the shock I experienced seeing that. Okay, one site used horrible orange which I shall never do again. Another a beautiful pink, toffee and black design and holy shit I use to own two domains!?!?! Oh and there were pictures of me too! OMFG!! I clicked on them and saved them to my computer. M is going to laugh so hard. Oh oh! look at one of my images I made that I was so proud of and still I think it is kind of cool.I love all the memories this brought back. I want so much more. I want to remember my other sites! Gah! I am so inspired now to get my own domain again. I want to work on my own design and while having this site for free is nice I can’t have my own design! I hate that. I will have to start saving my money and buy one. I guess I am going to have to start thinking of a name, cause I hate the one I have right now. I am just on cloud nine.

Baking fool

Not really but you know.  I baked butterscotch cookies last night.  I don’t have the recipe in front of me but should anyone want it I will get off my arse and go get it if you ask.  They are yummy.  I made M take a bag to work and then I left the rest in my cute little bear jar that has a sign you can flip that either says “I’m hungry” or “I’m Full”.  Hah, how cute.  My momma got me that for a moving present. M thinks me the devil for baking such a delicious treat that he feels compelled to eat.  I mean just because his diet has gone down the crapper this month doesn’t mean I can’t bake cookies.  I will be making more cookies too for that matter!  Also cheese cake!  Yes two types of cheese cake.  I made them 2 weeks ago and they were da bomb.  One was a blackberry swirl cheesecake that i had to bake and the other was a black forest cheese cake that required only refrigeration.  Again, recipes out of my reach.  Just ask and I will get em, or who knows in a couple of days I will do it anyways.

Okay so the I had a stupid moment 2 weeks ago.  I covered the cat box to do something and forgot to uncover it for like 2 whole days.  Yes, I am that dumb.  My cat thanked me though.  He held off on shitting until the end of day two, but pissing he couldn’t.  I didn’t realize until after my parents left that it was in the recliner in the spare bedroom where my mother slept (she has a bad back and must sleep in a chair) that it was in the freaking chair that he pissed.  I thanked the heavens that it wasn’t the floor because I didn’t want to loose my deposit.  So now that my parent’s have gone I am trying my hardest to get the smell of cat piss out of that chair.  I think it is a lost cause but it is my moms bed for visiting and I don’t want to toss it.  It isn’t like we are swimming in money with me not working.  So I bough natures miracle and am hoping that stuff will work. I soaked the spot yesterday and today it smelled a bit like it wasn’t as bad but I figured I would soak it again.  So I am crossing my fingers and hoping that I can get that horrible smell out.

So to any of you reading this, how many work from home?  What is that you do from home?  I am trying to plan for when we have a kid.  Here is the thing, we aren’t ready for a kid yet because we need to know where we will be in 9 months which at this time we don’t.  However, as much as i tell him to wrap his tool up I keep thinking I am pregnant, every freaking month for the past 3-4 months.  There is always one day that month that I will say okay, you can go au natural and we do.  This is usually when I “think” I am safe.  We all know that means nothing sometimes so I always think I am.  Then when I get my period I am half relieved and half disappointed.  What is wrong with me?!  I know we can’t have a kid yet, I don’t want a kid yet.  Heck even with the best birth control in the world having come and visit I still kind of want one of those monsters.  Bah.  I just need to save up money and then we will be fine and I will be happy.

Pre menstrual Crap

So my parents went home Monday and I have been sad because of that. I wish I could live around my parents. Besides M my mom is my closest friend. I went out shopping today because I needed to buy a cat scratching post (otherwise, M might give the cat the boot since he is using the beautiful carpet). After I made my purchase I walked over to Michaels and was immediately sad because my mother loves that store and I would have just enjoyed walking around it with her so it made me sad. Then I went grocery shopping and I was all depressed. I miss my momma. So then I decided to be a debby downer because I feel guilty about not having a job that would help us save money towards a house. It is just hard to want to find a job when we could be moving again in a few months. However, I need something, even if it is just part time. So it has been a blah day. I even woke up with a sore throat. So yeah, thanks to my period coming up I am just in a dumpy day. I could tell you all more, but I am not sure you would want the details. Oh okay, another thing I get to thank my period for is the frequent trips to the bathroom or “runs”. Not that the fact that I have IBS has anything to deal with that either. Love me, love my shit. Yup, that is my motto.

Attach A to B then turn lock 210 degrees to the right

I just spent 2 hours putting together a bookcase.  My mom bought it for us since we needed one for my monster collection of books and other assorted things that have found the way to the office.  It is an “inexpensive” nice one from walmart.  For $99 we got one with molding that make it look like a sound and thick bookcase, not a cheap one.  So I am pleased.  It took me 2 hours to put together, I don’t want to do again and I am so pleased that I don’t have to put display models together at some store.

 

M got up this morning and decided (with some minor pestering on my part) to whack some weeds.  Oh yeah baby, the weeds died this morning.  Plus my lovely father who is a little bored finished off doggy proofing the fence.  We did this because there are a lot of spots along the fence that has gaps between the ground and fence and we want to keep Mylie in here since she is a small dog that can get under just a couple inch gap.  We took chicken wire and stapled it to the bottom of the fence and then took the other end and hammered it to the ground with a stake.  We could then take (if this was our yard and we wanted to spend money on it) a tarp and lay it down along the fence and then place bark and rock and you would never really see the chicken wire.  It looks good.  Mainly in my head though.

My parents leave tomorrow and boy am I sad.  I cried horribly last night just some large tears cause I miss them and having them around.  My sister then called and dropped a bombshell.  She is getting married.  To a guy she started dating 4 weeks ago.  A guy she met online.  He spent “$4000″ on a ring for her we are told.  They are getting married in a month.  Yeah, and I though me and M moved fast.  We met online too but dated for 6 months before moving in with each other then got engaged at the 10 month mark and then got married 15 months after we met.  Not 2 months after meeting.  I hope he is a good guy and not some asshole that is using her for some reason and might just kill her or hurt my niece.  My mind goes to the worst possible place, can you tell?  So lets all hope he is decent and not a killer/”bad” man cause my sister deserves to be loved and by a good guy, so does my niece.

That be my drama.  How was your weekend?

Family Visitation Part 2

I sit here this morning sipping on a cold glass of chocolate milk (oh yeah baby, the good stuff) watching my father reclined on the loveseat and watching as my mother and niece play the wii. We never thought we would see the day that my mom was into a video game.  Granted she doesn’t stand up and get heavily into it but still she is trying to perfect her wrist flick and is competing with her granddaughter.  By the by, she is kicking my nieces butt.  Grandma is rocking the wii.

I love my family and miss my family so this is a really nice treat.  I enjoyed M’s mom visiting until I started reading things to mean she is moving in in a few months which with all honesty does not make me happy so I got a bit tense during the last few days of her visit.  She has other kids to move in with ones who have invited her to live there.  M and I just got married, we like to have sex.  I don’t like to have sex with his mom here.  I can’t make noise and my Os drastically decrease because of that.  We are going to be starting a family soon and I want to enjoy that.  I want a few years of M and I getting to be a married couple and a family before she moves in at all.  Things are not the greatest between M and I when she lives with us and I just don’t think it would be good for us if she was living here this early on.  At least I can have more fun with my family during their visit because I know they are not moving in with us at this point (maybe in 10 years when they are older but not 6-8 months).  I really hope M has a talk with his mom so that the stress isn’t there for me.  I think she needs to live with his sister who has been married for over 20 years and the kids are grown and out of the house before living with us.   Am I wrong?  Is this a bigger deal to me than it needs to be?  I can’t help it, I just want some private years of being married.